Penitance of a Sinner
Seems like this blog have become a personal space for me, I hope others don't mind it.
Some people believe in retribution, a murderer will be murdered at the end of his life, a torturer will face the same slow death he inflicted upon the others. Even saints are sinners, and at the end of their lives they shall scream out their few sins before Death takes it all.
What abou me? I have no recollection of sins. I once used to be so powerful, so feared that even most people in this blog refused to near, what have I become now? In your eyes, what am I? A useless human trying to save his last breath? Or a repenting sinner?
Why do I need to repent? Unknown sins in the past had led me to this point of my life. Physical pain is nothing to me, it is a fighter's task to put up with it. Unfortunately, fate planned my penitance more than enough. Mentally, I am weak.
What is the greatest pain of all? Yes yes hereit comes again. "Let it go!" you people will say, Like the lyrics of the song "Believe Me" :" What do I have to say? Maybe I should do what I have to do, to break free, and whatever happens to you we'll see but its not going to happen with me."
Can I let go? It takes a great deal of mental strength to let go. By the end of this affair i would most probably be insane. Yesterday in coordination with the CH Idol, I selected a song by Wang Jie and changed its lyrics. She caught my meaning in the lyrics, and she told me so, but the irony of it. We both know how each other feels, but nothing can be done to change the FACT!
After the choir perfomance last night, it was late. Mr Lucky gave her a lift home. 11pm at night, I had to worry. I do not know who this guy is, but he had better treat her good, he Must do so. Or else, something bad will happen. I meant no threat, but I mean business.
How long can I stand all this? This, friends, is the greatest pain of all. I can only accept this for as long as I can, my penitance to my sins.
Ardelus Nightmare-Bearer
Some people believe in retribution, a murderer will be murdered at the end of his life, a torturer will face the same slow death he inflicted upon the others. Even saints are sinners, and at the end of their lives they shall scream out their few sins before Death takes it all.
What abou me? I have no recollection of sins. I once used to be so powerful, so feared that even most people in this blog refused to near, what have I become now? In your eyes, what am I? A useless human trying to save his last breath? Or a repenting sinner?
Why do I need to repent? Unknown sins in the past had led me to this point of my life. Physical pain is nothing to me, it is a fighter's task to put up with it. Unfortunately, fate planned my penitance more than enough. Mentally, I am weak.
What is the greatest pain of all? Yes yes hereit comes again. "Let it go!" you people will say, Like the lyrics of the song "Believe Me" :" What do I have to say? Maybe I should do what I have to do, to break free, and whatever happens to you we'll see but its not going to happen with me."
Can I let go? It takes a great deal of mental strength to let go. By the end of this affair i would most probably be insane. Yesterday in coordination with the CH Idol, I selected a song by Wang Jie and changed its lyrics. She caught my meaning in the lyrics, and she told me so, but the irony of it. We both know how each other feels, but nothing can be done to change the FACT!
After the choir perfomance last night, it was late. Mr Lucky gave her a lift home. 11pm at night, I had to worry. I do not know who this guy is, but he had better treat her good, he Must do so. Or else, something bad will happen. I meant no threat, but I mean business.
How long can I stand all this? This, friends, is the greatest pain of all. I can only accept this for as long as I can, my penitance to my sins.
Ardelus Nightmare-Bearer
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