Just a thought
The time is 11.34 pm now, my mother is long since asleep. Hell knows when would I fall asleep again.
Damn, its been just a few months, and it's all back again. My bloody problems never seem to cease. The pain, the same sharp twisting pain returns again. Not in front, but behind, a worse torture. Every attack seem to break my back, arching it behind. The first attack came on last Saturday, unexpectedly.
What has these got to do with me? I wonder. Penitance for my sins? I think I've paid them all thoroughly. What is this all about?
Shit it hurts so bad now, it did all the time. God, if you are there, hear my cries, you've got the wrong person, I am INNOCENT!
How long since I last slept? From 10 to 11.30 last night, then awaken till now. Averagely 1 to 2 hours of sleep per day, plus an ocean of pain in between. It is so exhausting. I see things through a red film now, temporary eye damage I think, everything is red and blurry, but I just cant keep those eyes shut.
I'm not one to talk about personal pains, but some part of my mind, I naively hope that by typing this out, and seeing it in black and white, at least I can see my enemy physically, and that thought somehow comforts me a little.
Should anyone be interested, dont pray for my health, pray for my death, and release me from this body, I cannot take this any longer. Sooner or later.
I feel another spasm coming on again, best last typethis paragrph bfore i evrythingg geeetsss delEdted
ARdelusNightmarebearearaa
Damn, its been just a few months, and it's all back again. My bloody problems never seem to cease. The pain, the same sharp twisting pain returns again. Not in front, but behind, a worse torture. Every attack seem to break my back, arching it behind. The first attack came on last Saturday, unexpectedly.
What has these got to do with me? I wonder. Penitance for my sins? I think I've paid them all thoroughly. What is this all about?
Shit it hurts so bad now, it did all the time. God, if you are there, hear my cries, you've got the wrong person, I am INNOCENT!
How long since I last slept? From 10 to 11.30 last night, then awaken till now. Averagely 1 to 2 hours of sleep per day, plus an ocean of pain in between. It is so exhausting. I see things through a red film now, temporary eye damage I think, everything is red and blurry, but I just cant keep those eyes shut.
I'm not one to talk about personal pains, but some part of my mind, I naively hope that by typing this out, and seeing it in black and white, at least I can see my enemy physically, and that thought somehow comforts me a little.
Should anyone be interested, dont pray for my health, pray for my death, and release me from this body, I cannot take this any longer. Sooner or later.
I feel another spasm coming on again, best last typethis paragrph bfore i evrythingg geeetsss delEdted
ARdelusNightmarebearearaa
posted by Reminisce 1S4005S1 at 11:35 pm
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